Missing my Friends + An Epiphany

I miss miss miss miss miss miss my brothers and dad and GRANDMA and Austin so so so so muchh

but this blog is about how I miss my friends so so so muchh.

I love love love love love love them.

I swear every time I am with friends from brazil and someone does not automatically laugh at something I  say or when there is minimal perverted comments constantly made... I want Lindsey so friggen bad.
I crave Peen's laugh.
I crave her random texts.
I wish I could just hang out with monica and have a huge catch up session
I wish me and Melissa could have made a very memorable halloween ;)
or wake up saturday...and sunday...morning to hash browns.
or go get ice teas and go to franklin
or do something else that i can not even think of...but something memorable
I want nice little texts from Ryan...and be able to go for a run and then end up at his house...and be fed :) haha or to play with his little puppy or too hear updates from him and maria.
I want to be able to call Christian 5 minutes before something is happening and have him agree to it...
or now in college terms...call the night before and say I am coming to stay the weekend. :)
I want  to look at my phone and have texts from Shauna and Laura.
Laura talking about something deep and inspirational
or talking smack :)
or giving me advice
or refraining from giving advice and just listening to everything thoroughly
or just plain ol chit chat
ahhh I miss her big ol smile and crazy randomness
and I miss just talking to Shauna all the time and just doing all the very typical friend activities...if that makes sense (nails/sleepovers/movies/mall/tea an energy drink/random talks/BEING LAZY AND WATCHING TV/ talkin smack :) )
Uggg and I hate thinking about all the crazy good times I could be having with Devin and Luis!
I love these two...and wish we would have hung out much more and miss them very very much!

I feel like I took these relationships for granted so so so so so much.

And although there is nothing that can take away this longing
I know these guys will be there when I get back. And that makes me feel 100% better.
I got a handful of keepers ;)


I love them and want them all in my room RIGHT NOW but I feel like this measly month apart has made me realize so so so so so much about them... and I am excited that you guys are apart of my life and am so excited to see your beautiful faces in June :)

Supermarket.

Is interesting.

Variety here is very slim.

Like not a lot of canned goods/frozen goods/crackers. etc.

Like there are saltine things. and like cookies that are kinda like oreos just with different fillings.

and yogurt. and like milk...(that is not called its just on the shelf)

then there is meat...some of it kept called....the rest....not so much...I was like gagging walking by because the smell to me was just so terrible and I made a mental note to not eat any meat while I am here. Luckily the chicken was in being kept cold.

When people check out....the whole time I was thinking...how are you not obese...the contents of most carts were at mininum 15 packages of these oreo like cookies.....bags of chips....chocolate....milk....and bread......and more chocolate.

I need to make a fully positive post.

But when I am in a positive mood I am too busy living it up  and not time to blog :)
When I blog it is more of a diary of somethin bugging me at the moment

Stupid Judgements.

People like to tell me that Americans are very judgmental. 

Well...I am going to be judgmental and judge these people.

Because I am like uh not anymore than you and your friends are judgmental I think it is more of just a thing everyone does.

And they are like no you are wrong your guys are so much more judgmental...

So I am having this conversation and these guys are talking about how bad Americans are.... 

then he switches it to us hanging out sometime...HA!

and they were like oh we have to take you to a gay bar

and i was all excited because HOW FUN

and they were like its so funny to see them parade around

blah blah blah

then like one guy put his hand on the guys shoulder to pretend be gay and they were all like "ohhh gayyy" "he's gay" "ew" 

"gay" *stupid guy laughter*

I was like uhh... I feel like your being judgmental.

and then later they pointed out all the emos...and how I should not talk to them...

This whole time.... I kept reffering to them calling us Super Judgmental.

So ... not saying all brasilians are like this.... but this group of guys were deff a bunch of  d-bags.

Portuguese

I think of sentences I should be saying.

But I keep getting that to nervous to talk sensation

Hopi Hari

The brasilian theme park.

Rotary tries to push the whole "nothing is better or worse just different"
wrong.
American Theme Parks are definitely superior.

Like it was more of a cute attempt. like the wooden roller coaster...was more of constant pain then fun...
I got a bruise on my side and arm from banging around on the thing. haha. and the rest of the rides were more of fair rides. and like the water ride that every theme park has where you are in a  big tube... was more like floating down a river.

The food...was terrible! haha
it was the same thing at every stand!! hamburgers..hot dogs...and at one place there was pizza. I just thought it was funny that the variety was inexistent.

oh and they had like a "It's a small world ride" It was kinda scary not gonna lie! Clowns and tribal voodoo people. haha

I still had fun though! haha because it is in Brasil and it was fun to see how excited the people I was with were. Like every thing they were like "QUE LEGAL" (how cool) so that was fun.

Brazilian Wedding

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

ah it was so much fun.
Okay so it was at this place called "Imperial Buffet"
which when seeing the sign sounded so tacky.
But it like a winery.
The actual ceremony was in a quite little space for how many people there were.
There were people standing because there were not enough seats.

So the ceremony starts with a mini orchestra playing "Can you feel the love tonight"
I think its called that...

and it was a very like catholic-y type wedding...long.
and its interesting because instead of maid of honor and brides maids and best man and what not...
its just the members of the family...and like the wifes sit on the wife side and the mans family sits on his side...and like they walk down the aisle with their husbands(boyfriends) or vice versa.

lallalalallaalaa i do not feel like explaining the rest of the ceremony :)

the party after "reception"
so funnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.
waiter dudes brought around Brahama (delicious brazilian beer) guarana (brazilian pop) coca-cola and water.
then they brought around all these tiny appetizers
and then real food...rice...chicken stuff...reg.

and then there was a power point of the bride and grooms family :) really cute!! :)
and then music :)
and all the kids started dancing....better than me might I add.
then the dj said something and everyone started yelling in excitement and looked under the table and pulled out a bag full of crazy boas and sunglasses and flashy stuff that everyone put on. it was fun
then everyone started dancing forever young and the super old :)
it was crazy fun
I met new primas :)
I love cousins.
and I talked with a guy who went to boston he was really cool and his "wife" (lived together 7 years have son not actually married....he explained that in brasil that is like marriage...they just have not had a party for it which I think is really cool...so much less pressure)
back to boston guy..his "wife" is so nice her name is sunny i love her and there son pedro is so nice and always trys to talk english and he takes me to the country club he is fun...and they have a really cool house but live in Sao paulo and offered to take me :) yayyyy

i dunno how to conclude this....
more of just jumbled thoughts of the wedding :)